Just finished cooking, cleaning and emailing my brother on the mish. I baby my husband too much (he says it too) because I pretty much do everything. Lol. Cook, wash some dishes while I'm cooking, after eating I clean and then finish washing the rest of the dishes, dry and then put them away. I've been doing this since the day we got married and I think we both just got into the habit of me doing it. Haha. But he does help when I ask...only ask. Hoi. Annoying. I'm exhausted. On top of that had a bad day, monthly visitor decided to come today, and for the past two days lost sleep becasue of my teething baby.
I didn't get much sleep Friday and less sleep yesterday. Tina slept around 3 this morning and I got up at 8am to get ready for church at 11am. I woke up with horrible cramps and with the runs. I gave Tina a bath, got her ready, then she pooped and it leaked from the diaper through every layer of clothing on her. While changing her, she pee'd and so I changed her again. After I got her ready for the last time, I sat her in her car seat and ran to the bathroom for the fourth time this morning. While sitting on the toilet, I just wanted to give up stay home, but I didn't want my bad day and whatever sickness I had stop me from taking my daughter to church and partaking of the sacrament and renewing my covenants with Him. So, I said a pray and just asked my Heavenly Father to bless Tina and I with patience. To help me overcome whatever stomach flu I had, be alert at church and help me be filled with the spirit to understand what's being taught and to understand my daughters needs. I had a great day at church and didn't feel any stomach pain until I returned home. That's all I could've asked for. My monthly visitor luckily came while at home. Pheeew...that would've been a pain!
I've learned that prayer is the most important conversation of my day. Whenever I forget to say my prayers, I notice that my day doesn't go so well. Everyday before I do anything, including hoping on IG (lol), I say my morning prayer and read the scriptures. Some time during the day, I'll read something from an Ensign. Or I listen to it while doing my chores. It's helped me out a lot and it's starting to become a daily routine. :)
Before making any kind of decision on anything, turning to the Lord has always helped me out a lot. When I'm in tune with the spirit, everything I need to do becomes clear and I know what path to follow. Sometimes we do run with our heads and make un-necessary decisions, and later regret it. We always pay the consequences for poor choices. I've learned to be quick to turn to the Lord, instead of being quick to grab whatever it is we think and talk about doing.
After having Tina, John and I talked about whether or not we wanted to have more kids. I decided that I didn't want to take any kind of birth control and do it natural. Yes, we could get pregnant at any time, but I'm not sure if I'm ready. I've been praying and I just expressed to Him that whenever he see's us fit for another child then let it be. I personally want to wait another year or two or I'm satisfied with just having Tina. I just want to make sure that I fulfill my responsiblitly in teaching Tina about the gospel and help her understand that the only way...is God's way. I want to be prepared to do that with all the children our Heavenly Father decides to entrust us with. I see each child as His child. I love Tina so much, but I can't imagine how much our Heavenly Father does. Praying has definitely comforted me and I'm leaving it in His hands and just preparing myself for whatever decision He makes.
Well...mother duties are calling. :) gotta run! CPR. Church. Prayer & Scripture Readying :)
