I know this is normal for children to have separation anxiety from their mother's, but is it okay for mother's to feel that way too. When I first gave birth to Tina, I remember crying about everything. I remember crying when the nurses took her a way for her shots or whenever I found out she had jaundice. I was the biggest cry baby when it came to my baby. I think that even now, I get emotional when I feel too far a way from my daughter.
I've been feeling this way lately again when I started work about a month ago or even when I started school. I'm grateful to be a stay at home mom now, but every moment and time I have with my daughter I'm more grateful for. It's even hard for me to work out again. I use to take her to kids care, but the thought of taking her there again makes me want to cry. Lol. I've been trying to workout at home for the past week or so and it hasn't really been successful. I'm trying to find a time where I can workout when my daughter is asleep, but that's kind of tricky. When I first got a gym membership and I signed up for kids care, the thought of it blew my mind. There was no way I would take my daughter to kids care, but I did and it worked out just fine...of course taking a peek on her every now and then to see how she was doing. So, I'll see how it works out again or if I'll have to make working out a routine at home. Any of my free time, I just love spending with my daughter. With these past few experiences, I've come to appreciate every single moment with her. I've been trying to take her to do different activities and I love the smile on her face or when she says 'I love you so much mom' and gives me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. It's moments like those that keep me motivated to do things with her. Such as swimming; she loves swimming so I've been trying to take her every week. I've placed her in different activities such as gymnastics, swimming, and dance, but I've come to think I could teach her myself. I put her in these activities because I thought making new friends would be fun for her and learning from another adult would be easier because she's probably tired of me, sometimes I don't know what Tina wants. We'll see how this coaching stuff works out, but I believe I can become my own coach & teacher to my daughter. It's time to pull out the calendar, notebooks and markers, and google to see how much I can really do. Lol. The things mother's do to keep their child a little younger and a little closer.
Tina starts pre-school next week; I'm excited and nervous for her! We'll see how she likes it...
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